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Kendra hasn't felt safe since she began to recall devastating memories of childhood sexual abuse, especially because she can't remember the most important detail: her abuser's identity. At fifteen, Kendra believes someone is always watching her, leaving menacing messages only she understands. To relieve the pressure, Kendra cuts; aside from her brilliantly expressive artwork, it's her only way of coping. Since her own mother is too self-absorbed to hear her cries for help, Kendra finds support in others, including Meghan, the classmate who may be more than a friend. But the truth about Kendra's abuse is just waiting to explode, with startling consequences.

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ISBN-13: 9781482948684
Publisher: Blackstone Audio, Inc.
Publication date: 10/28/2013
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 1.25(h) x 9.00(d)
Age Range: 14 - 17 Years

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Scars 4.7 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 110 reviews.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I stumbled upon this at the library when I was struggling with my own self-injury issues, and hoped that through reading it I could find strength, or at least a bit of companionship. In that respect, I was disappointed. The book is beautifully written. A bit choppy, maybe, but Kendra's emotions, her artwork, and most of all her cutting is described viividly- often disturbingly so. That's what made it so hard that her recovery was not described at all. This book describes just why a person would want to self-harm and forgets the part about why, or how, to stop. The sexual abuse storyline was finalized, but the self-injury was not. I was triggered very badly, and then there was no conclusion to tell me that things could be okay. There was a big fat book about how good cutting felt, and then a single sentence of essentially "Oh yeah, I stopped". For this reason, I would not suggest it to someone struggling with cutting. Sexual abuse, maybe, but cutting? It almost felt insulting, the way the ending went. I'm dealing with my issues much better now, and in hindsight I can appreciate some of the intense writing more, but it's still not a book I would recommend for anyone related to self-injury. It hurts too much, and it's not honest about getting better, and those are the two worst things you can tell someone who cuts.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This was a great, powerful book that featured a compelling, haunting yet hopeful story and some well-written, fleshed out characters. I did have a small complaint (though I guess it's really more of a thought than complaint). Rainfield did a great job balancing all the emotions in Kendra's story. What I also really loved about this book is how it treats the lesbian aspect- it's definitely there, but it's not at the forefront or anything and a big deal isn't made about it when it does come up. Kendra already knows and has accepted that she's lesbian; yes, there is the requisite parental blowup about it but it's handled well in the scene where she comes out and they work toward accepting their daughter. Kendra relives her abuse, through flashbacks that hit her out of (almost) nowhere and with her therapist, as she tries to remember the identity of her abuser. She also cuts herself, repeatedly, to cope with the pain and the panic that these memories bring on. Rainfield portrays all of this realistically and sensitively. She lets us inside Kendra's head to see her pain, shame, insecurities, fear and more. More importantly, she shows how much Kendra appreciates and depends on those who support her, even if Kendra doesn't always show it herself. It is Kendra's chosen family, her therapist, her art teacher, her mentor, and her girlfriend, that make it possible for her to face her abuse and ultimately her abuser.  
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Great book. Best book I have ever read. I would love to have it on my nook, so i can have it at hand where ever!
mrtorange More than 1 year ago
Scars is by all mean a powerful book. I normally don't read books about cutting - the thought of people hurting themselves scares me - but the description on the back of the book drew me in. I sat down and read it all in one sitting, and I was not disappointed. It's fast-paced, suspenseful, educational, and most of all, emotional. The pain and struggles in the book are real, but so is the triumph. Through Kendra, the main character, Rainfield creates an emotionally real world of family, friends, and role models. I held my breath along with Kendra as she tried to uncover the mystery of her abuser, and felt her relief and hope at every victory, no matter how small. This book is for survivors of abuse. It's for people who self-harm. It's for LGBTQ kids. It's for people who don't understand self-harm, or the turmoil that victims of abuse go through. It's for people who have felt alone in their struggle. It's for anyone who has felt pain. Scars is painful. It hurts. But it also heals, and I think that anyone's who has ever suffered silently could find solace and comfort in Kendra's story.
BipolarFaerie More than 1 year ago
I read this book on my eReader while sitting in Starbucks. It riveted me to my seat. And released me only when I'd finished. I felt as though I was holding my breath as I flew through this book. It's a powerful story, written in an evocative style of language. Scars tells the story of pain, of pain so horrific that no language exists to describe it. I loved the author's use of art as a language, a medium for Kendra to purge her soul and reach for the truth of her past. I love also the mystery surrounding the stalker/perpetrator, and the way Rainfield pairs it up with Kendra's recovery of her suppressed memories. This book is about a teenage girl finding herself as much as it is a gripping, page-turning kind of book. It's quite clever that the stalker stalks and secretly threatens Kendra in order to prevent her from further recovery and disclosure, which only ends up nudging her closer and closer to the edge of memory recovery. I loved the characters, and wished the book could have been a little longer so we could explore the characters some more. I found myself mildly annoyed with Lori, Kendra's mom. She seemed ingenuine, or naive. Or more like an ostrich ~ head in the sand. She went to such great effort to make her paintings postcards perfect. I wondered if this was over-compensation. I kept trying to see the story from the mom's POV, trying to tell myself that it sucks for moms in her situation. She may have seemed one-dimensional, but I think that's not the case, I think it seemed like that because we are inside Kendra's head, seeing things from her perspective. As far as Kendra and Meghan's relationship goes, it did seem to happen so fast, but the book is a short one. I will say, though, that of all the girl on girl GBLTQ YA books I've read, this one treats the subject matter the best. There's tenderness, softness, expressiveness and vulnerability, all the qualities I want to see in a girl on girl romance. In fact, I would like to see a second book, one which tells Meghan's story.
brady18 More than 1 year ago
This is a must read. It is heartwrenching. It will never leave you.
EdNY More than 1 year ago
The fact that author Cheryl Rainfield is a former cutter and an abuse survivor makes Scars even more chilling than it would have been otherwise. Kendra is a victim of sexual abuse but she has repressed her memory of her abuser. She does remember him telling her that he will kill her if she ever tells what happened. He is now stalking her as well, occasionally dropping off little 'presents'. To ease the extreme emotional pain, Kendra, a talented artist, draws. Her drawings evoke the sharp emotions she is experiencing. She has also begun cutting. She must keep all of this a secret. Her life depends on it. Her mother has always been critical of Kendra and her art. She talks to Kendra but doesn't listen. Her father shows her more love and does listen, but he cannot be an outlet for her. The only person Kendra feels comfortable talking to is her therapist, Carolyn, who listens and is not judgmental. Yet through her therapy sessions she still has not been able to discover the identity of her abuser. To make matters worse, Kendra has fallen for Meghan, a girl with a myriad of problems of her own. No one can predict how he or she will react being a victim of sexual abuse or the parent of an abused child. The adults in Scars run the gamut from distance to understanding to love; from judgmental to non-judgmental. Every character in Scars is as real as I would imagine them to be. Kendra's emotion turmoil is so believable-her frustration at not being able to remember her abuser vs. her fear to remember him; her questioning her own sanity as she hears footsteps (or imagines she hears them) following her home from school. Kendra's elation with Meghan is a great juxtaposition with her sadness at her situation. The pace of the story jumps between fast as Kendra runs away from her stalker to slow as she and Meghan enjoy a nice summer afternoon in the park. Told in the first person, Scars by Cheryl Rainfield grips you from the page one. It is a great companion book to Cut by Patricia McCormick, also a must read, reviewed on this website. I cannot recommend these books enough.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book is a must read for anyone who has dealt with abuse/cutting or other issues as well as friends and supporters. The story is so real that I did not want to put the book down. It was written so believably that you are inside Kendra's head experiencing situations as she feels them. As a survivor I really feel as though this story must be read and shared in the world.
Dansharpie More than 1 year ago
This book was absolutely magnificent. It made me feel as if I were in the situations Kendra faced. The author really portrayed how rape can cruelly turn your world upside down. At the same time, this story showed ways to cope with the tragic incident. This book has impacted me immensely. The way that Kendra feels so alone gives me a sad feeling in the pit of my stomach. While feeling sad you also feel somewhat enlightened to see that so many people care about her and who she is but she never really sees it. The poor girl goes through very tough times and finds the need to cut herself every time she feels said or begins to think about the time she was raped. It is very depressing to think that this could happen to anyone at anytime and could effect them in so many ways. I believe that this book could help other victims cope with their pain and bring them closer to living a normal life. Cheryl Rainfield displayed major understanding of this subject and showed the many ways people deal with being raped throughout life. I hope that every victim gets to read this book because I believe it could changed their lives. I would definitely recommend this book to anyone who's looking for a book they can't put down. -Dansharpie
JoanneLevy More than 1 year ago
I have to preface this by saying I had a very normal childhood and was just a very average teen, so parts of this book were tough for me to relate to personally at first. But it didn't take long before I totally felt for Kendra, whose pain is so deep that she cuts to help herself cope with her horrible memories of abuse and the current threat of her molester stalking her. I think this book provides an excellent window into the lives of kids who self-injure and makes it easier to understand why they might hurt themselves to ease pain. I think the author tackled this obviously sensitive issue with honesty while injecting a lot of hope in Kendra's story.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I haven't read the book yet but it looks like a really good book!!!!! And yes I do judge a book by it's cover
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I finished this book in only two days and loved every minute of it. This book had me holding my breath, tearing up, or screaming in outrage! If you like dark and twisty reads with bittersweet endings you’ll love this novel and the powerful and resilient Kendra.
JanaRose1 on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Kendra has learned to cope with the pain of sexual abuse by cutting herself. Although she is in therapy, and finds release in her art work, she find that cutting is the only way to relieve the pressure as she recovers memories of her abuse and searches for the identity of her attacker.I'm not sure how I feel about this book. I thought it did a good job of discussing why someone would cut and describing the release they get from it. I just wanted more. I wanted it to go into more details about how Kendra came to terms with herself, how she was able to stop cutting and how she was able to cope with the revealed identity of her rapist. I thought the author did a good job of providing resources in the index that a teenager, or anyone, can use if they have questions about cutting or other types of self-harm.
reina10 on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
This is a powerful and moving story. Kendra is a sexual abuse survivor that has turned to cutting to cope with the overwhelming emotional pain in her life. After a few months of seeing a therapist, Kendra begins to recollect the identity of her abuser and finds herself once again threatened by her him. Consequently, she is forced to face her past and deal with the pain that plagues her. I liked that the book ended on a realistic note, and didn't have a "happily ever after"ending. Kendra does begin the healing process, but will clearly have some work ahead of her. I thought this was an important message. Although there are times where the writing is more for "young teens" I found the overall story powerful and informative. It helped me to understand the emotional pain and thought process of someone who self mutilates. This book is a great resource for anyone - parents, friends, educators - who want to understand self mutilation. In addition, the author includes a list of resources that should be helpful to anyone who wants to learn more about this topic.
dsolter on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Wow. This book is so raw. Honest. And yes, gutsy. Yet SCARS doesn¿t hit you over the head with its subject matter. The novel deals with many issues such as cutting, rape, abuse, and homosexuality. But the book doesn¿t overburden itself to become a multi-issue agenda piece disguised as a novel. Far from it. SCARS is very much a powerful and engrossing story that¿s focused on character and not issues. This book will scare, infuriate, and challenge the reader to take an honest look inside the soul of a teen who¿s hurting and to understand why. What I really love about SCARS is that, even though it takes you through the depths of evil without flinching, it nevertheless is a book about hope and rebirth, not a journey of self-destruction. SCARS is an edgy, young adult book, so if you are easily offended, please don¿t read any further because I¿ll be explaining the plot. (Without spoilers) SCARS is about a teenage girl named Kendra who was raped when she was five years old. Still not sure of the man¿s identity, she only remembers bits and pieces from the actual assault. But Kendra still lives in fear. She can¿t trust any man, fearing any one of them could be HIM. To cope with the situation, Kendra turns to cutting as a ¿safe¿ way to relieve the stress and paranoia she suffers from. Only to discover what ¿helps¿ her, might also end up destroying her. If you love edgy, young adult novels in the vein of Ellen Hopkins. You will LOVE Scars.
Enamoredsoul on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
When I first saw the blurb for "Scars", I was deeply enchanted by it. I felt like I just HAD to read the book, especially given my own personal history with self-mutilation. I literally hounded the author, (who, by the way, is a complete and total sweetheart - and an immensely compassionate lady!), stalked the book and it's progress until I finally got myself a copy. What I didn't realize was how difficult it got, from there on out. Day in, and day out, the book sat on the top row of the book-shelf right next to my bed. That's the row reserved for "books to be read ASAP!", and yet, every time I tried to begin reading this novel, the emotions that accompanied the story were all too real for me to face. I have to admit, and apologize, that it took me forever to find the courage to read this novel. But let me tell you this, I am beyond grateful that I did. This novel is one of the BEST books I've read in a very long time. I must forewarn you as a reader, though, the subject matter of this book (self-mutilation, sexual abuse) is kind of hard to stomach - but I believe it is really important for us to face these issues, and to bring these issues to light. The story is heartbreaking, deeply affecting, extremely suspenseful, masterfully crafted...but above all, it is an important story, that needed telling. It might make you uneasy, or even queasy, but it will also give you a glimpse into the world of a tortured soul. I am in awe of the way that the author handled the subject matter, and how gingerly and delicately she developed her characters. Cheryl Rainfield has become my favorite, and I will read whatever she writes from here on out.
KevinTC on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Fifteen-year old Kendra is such a strong, endearing and memorable character. The fact that she cuts her arms to the point of mutilation makes her no less strong. Scars opens with Kendra telling her therapist Carolyn that someone is following her. The reader is hooked by this revelation. When she tells Carolyn it¿s her molester who is out there stalking her, the implausibility of this happening pushes the reader even harder to find out what happens. In the end of Chapter One, though, Kendra discovers a note from her abuser in her backpack, confirming her suspicions to both her therapist and the reader.Kendra cannot remember the identity of her abuser. The stress she experiences through both vague memories of her abuse, and the stalking from her unknown perpetrator, cause her to cut to relieve the pain. When Meghan enters her life¿originally to rescue her from bullying in the school hallway¿Kendra experiences a glimmer of hope for her future. With Meghan and Carolyn at her side, the reader gets a sense of hope for Kendra¿s eventual recovery. But it¿s not an easy road ahead of her.Rainfield skilfully keeps the reader on edge through the unfolding of this dark and realistic story of childhood sexual abuse. What really touched me the most about this story is the heartbreaking way Kendra occasionally suspected one of the most caring people in her life of being her abuser. Sandy, her mother¿s homosexual friend, is always there for Kendra¿always filled with love and understanding for her. But her struggle to remember the details of her abuse, and the face of the man behind it, means nobody in her life is above suspicion. Through her suspicion of Sandy, the reader gets a keen sense of the turmoil Kendra lives in.Readers will become fully engrossed in this young adult novel. Rainfield has drawn such a paradoxically strong and broken character in Kendra that the reader will both fear and long for her memory to be recovered, for her life to be restored. They will feel Kendra¿s urge to cut and they will experience temporary relief when she does, so powerful are Rainfield¿s descriptions of the stress and pain that Kendra experiences. She writes Kendra¿s helplessness and determination to reclaim her life with such painstaking accuracy that the reader cannot help but get totally engaged with this story. Though I thought I worked out who the abuser was early on in the story, I was still fully engrossed in discovering if I was right and how exactly the story would play out. Rainfield delivered a satisfying ending, worthy of the build-up created by Kendra¿s journey of pain. Scars is an important book. It¿s a brave look into the wasteland that is left behind when our children are sexually molested. It¿s a book of truth, pain and hope. Rainfield turns a spotlight on a topic that needs to be brought into the open. And she does it in a no-holds-barred way, offering up a true look into the horrible reality that too many children face.
Ashliecaster on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
This book brought me to tears several times. Being a surviver from self harm I knew exactly what this girl was feeling. I loved how the author twisted the book and made it REAL. I loved the romance in the novel.
ACleveland on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
ive heard so much about this book that i as hoping that it would be good...but it wasn'tim not just a former cutter, that has been "touched" when they were little, and also a lesbian. i have to say that i am HIGHLY disappointed.the most positive thing that i can say about this book was that the end was very shocking.other than that i almost feel like i wasted time and money buying this book. there isn't any depth to it. i honestly don't see whats so good about this book.
janetmelton on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
I received this book from goodreads.I enjoyed this book alot. I really feel bad for Kendra. Reading this book you just want to put your arms around her and tell her that everythings going to be ok. Kendra is a victum of sexual abuse, but she does know who did it. until now. A MUST READ.
ShellyPYA on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Kendra cuts to help ease the painful memories of her sexual abuse that are suddenly coming back. She doesn't want to remember, as her abuser told her that if she tells, he'll kill her. So she cuts and uses art to free her memories. But her therapy starts to bring things back; to make it even worse, she suspects her abuser is following her. As she begins to remember more, she wonders if she'll have the strength to face the truth.
lawral on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Booktalk:Kendra is full of secrets. She let one big one out six months ago, when she started to remember and told her parents about the sexual abuse she suffered as a child. Now she's struggling to keep the rest of her secrets in: she wishes her therapist, her art teacher, almost anyone else, was her real mother; she's been cutting herself to deal with the pain that remembering the abuse has brought on; she has a crush on the toughest girl at school, who also sleeps with boys like it's her job; and the biggest secret of all, one she can't even tell herself, somewhere deep down in her memory, she knows who raped her and she knows that he'll kill her if she tells.Review:This book is wonderful and powerful. It is a book I read in a day and then took two days to digest. I highly recommend it. That said, this is a book about prolonged sexual abuse and self-injury, in addition to being a book about a girl whose mother is not happy about her daughter's new girlfriend. It is not for everyone, but it will undoubtedly be really important for more than a few someones.Throughout the course of the book, the bulk of which spans what feels like only a week, Kendra relives her abuse, through flashbacks that hit her out of (almost) nowhere and with her therapist, as she tries to remember the identity of her abuser. She also cuts herself, repeatedly, to cope with the pain and the panic that these memories bring on. Rainfield portrays all of this realistically and sensitively. She lets us inside Kendra's head to see her pain, shame, insecurities, fear and more. More importantly, she shows how much Kendra appreciates and depends on those who support her, even if Kendra doesn't always show it herself. It is Kendra's chosen family, her therapist, her art teacher, her mentor, and her girlfriend, that make it possible for her to face her abuse and ultimately her abuser.There were some moments in the book when the dialog seemed less than authentic. Using Carolyn, Kendra's therapist, Rainfield can realistically work phrases like "you're not the one who deserves to be hurt, Kendra. He is," into a conversation about Kendra's self-injury. Instead when Meghan, Kendra's girlfriend of a day, says it, it can be a bit jarring (139)*. However, it is the right things to say and important for readers to, well, read. While the few exchanges like this between Kendra and Meghan pulled me momentarily out of the story, they are easily outweighed by the cute wow-you're-pretty moments that these two more often share. Their budding relationship adds the happiness that Kendra so desperately needs and the normalcy that the average reader will need in order to relate to all the Kendra is going through.Cheryl Rainfield has also included an annotated bibliography of web resources, help lines and crisis support, books, articles, and videos for victims of sexual and ritual abuse, those who self-harm, teens thinking about suicide, and teens in the process of coming out or dealing with homophobia. She also highlights resources specifically for friends, family, and other vital supporters of people dealing with these issues.Book source: Review copy from publisher.*All quotes were taken from an uncorrected proof. Exact wording and page numbers may not match the final copy.
brandileigh2003 on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
This is a gripping tale of a sexual abuse survivor that deals with cutting. It is dark and unforgettable as you go on a journey with Kendra to remember who her abuser is, and learn to love and trust again. Kendra is a strong character and a survivor, she is easy to root for and you want her to come out on top. I like that this book does not gloss over the fact that cutting cannot be stopped on a dime, and that even if things get brighter, it is still a process that will likely take the rest of your life. However, it does give hope, and she is learning to be happy. I recommend for anyone who liked Speak, Cut, Hate List, By the time you read this, I'll be dead, or Willow.
mesmericrevelation on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Wow! I think I have a new favorite book. I was hooked from the first page and I couldn't put this book down even to get a drink. Scars is brave, moving, and powerful and it will stay with you for a long time. I honestly think that everyone needs to read it. It is incredible! Seriously, read it.
mjspear on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Hard-hitting novel about a girl who cuts herself to keep from feeling the deeper pain of having been sexually abused as a child. In a related subplot, Kendra forms a bond with and eventually falls in love with a rogue classmate, Meghan. The emotional rush of cutting is captured perfectly and characters, while not deep, are convincing. Due to the mature theme, this book is most suited to older teens and/or those seeking biblio-therapy.