Lifelong friends Coco, Nita, and Tia have spent years looking for love in the arms of flashy pro athletes, hoping to land a baller but ending up with a stream of failed relationships. The beautiful and demure Coco has endured years of physical abuse from her boyfriend, Sonny, while Tia, a single mother, has dated her fair share of cheaters and yearns for a stable companion who will be a father figure to her son. And feisty, seductive Nita is tired of being the million-dollar mistress and wants to settle down—if she can find someone worth coming home to.
Changing the Game . . .
Now that the women are approaching thirty, they’re finding it harder than ever to compete with the pro groupies. Determined to change the game and find some worthwhile men, Tia hatches an outrageous plan. Soon the trio is "holy rolling," masquerading as God-fearing churchgoers at a local conference for young ministers in the hopes of snagging a prominent pastor. But will their big gamble pay off? Men of the cloth are still just men, after all. As the three friends meet their potential life partners, they will have to decide how far they want to take their holy rollers scheme—each risking heartbreak while taking a chance on finding a reliable, responsible man to love and cherish, flaws and all.
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That fool needs to die. I’m talking an acid-in-the-face, burning-in-the-bed, slow and painful death.”
Audra Bowen’s eyes grew wide as she stared at her friend. Juanita Reynolds, or Nita as she was called by those who knew her best, was never one to mince words, and the way she was glaring at Coco, their other friend, in disgust proved she was maintaining her sterling record.
“You need to put some arsenic in his coffee, lace his beer with cyanide, something,” Nita continued.
While Audra would never be that graphic, she definitely felt where Nita was coming from. She also knew that she better jump in this conversation, because sensitivity was not Nita’s strong suit.
“Coco, no one thinks you need to try and duplicate a Lifetime movie,” Audra said, cutting her eyes at Nita. “We are just really concerned about you, that’s all.”
They were sitting in a booth for lunch at Grooves Restaurant, one of the swankier spots in Houston. Audra should’ve known something was up. When the hostess had tried to seat them near the door, where they usually liked to sit so they could see and be seen, Coco had all but had a fit and asked to be moved to the back, in a secluded part of the restaurant. As soon as she removed her sunglasses, they saw why.
“A man has one time to put his hand on me,” Nita said. “One time.” She held up one finger. “Then it’s gonna be a lot of hymn singin’ and flower bringin’.”
“Calm down,” Coco began, slipping the dark sunglasses back on. “It’s a lot worse than it looks.”
“If it got any worse, you’d be dead,” Nita snapped.
The sight of Coco’s puffy black eye made Audra want to cry. It was especially noticeable because of Coco’s light skin. Of the three of them, she was the prettiest. She could pass for Mariah Carey’s sister, except there was nothing glamorous about Coco. She wore her golden brown hair straight and parted down the middle. With her petite frame and passive demeanor, she looked like a librarian. Still, she’d never had any trouble attracting men, which was why they couldn’t understand why she stayed with that psychopath Sonny. But it was useless to complain. They’d been down this road so many times, and no matter how many times Sonny hit her, Coco refused to leave. She was repeating a vicious cycle. Her mother was in an abusive relationship, which she, too, refused to leave.
Nita asked the question she always asked. “Coco, you are a smart woman with your own money and your own job as a teacher. I don’t understand. How long are you going to let him do this to you?”
“I told you, I’m working on an exit plan if Sonny doesn’t get it together,” Coco said, giving the answer she always gave. “Sonny has been stressed ever since the Texans cut him. He’s been worried about getting picked up by another team. I just don’t want to leave him when he’s down.”
“Go somewhere with that bull,” Nita snapped. “Players get cut every day. So you’re supposed to let him beat you because he’s feeling sorry for himself ? I don’t think so, and I can’t figure why you keep making excuses for him.” Nita leaned back in her seat, frustrated.
Audra totally agreed. She had no idea why Coco stayed with her boyfriend of two years. Granted, Sonny had been a gem in the beginning, but over the last year, he’d turned into somebody they didn’t recognize, especially in the six months that he’d been cut from the team. Coco was always talking about the good times they used to have, but Audra was like Nita. After the first time, all the good memories would have been gone—along with her. But no matter what Sonny did, Coco stayed. And now that she was three months’ pregnant with his child, they knew the chances of her ever leaving were slim to none.
“The bastard hit you while you’re pregnant!” Nita said, as if it had just dawned on her. “You’re still in your first trimester and he wants to put his hands on you!”
“Can you guys let me handle this?” Coco pleaded. “This is the first time he’s gone off in months. He’s not going to do anything to hurt me or the baby, okay?”
Nita dramatically rolled her eyes as Audra struggled to find the right words to get through to her friend.
“Just stop judging me, okay? You never know what you’ll do unless you’re in that situation,” Coco said.
“I know I wouldn’t let some six-foot-six man who’s built like an army tank put his hands on me, I know that much,” Nita said, jabbing her finger to emphasize her point.
“Just drop it, please?” Coco said. “Besides, if I had known you guys were going to trip like this, birthday or no birthday, I would’ve bowed out.”
Audra shot Nita a chastising look to get her to back off. Otherwise, Coco would be out the door in a minute.
“Can we change the subject, please?” Coco leaned back as the waitress set their drinks in front of them. “Audra, how was your date last night?” she asked after the waitress walked off.
“Let’s just say his eyebrows were arched better than mine,” Audra said, letting Coco change the subject. Nothing they said would make a difference anyway. “And the fact that he knew my Louis Vuitton was a knockoff spoke volumes.” She sighed heavily. “I’m never gonna find my son a father. I hate men.” Audra spat out the words with conviction, like they resonated from deep within her soul.
“No, you hate your choice in men,” Nita remarked drily as she picked up her Crown and Coke and slurped it down like it was just Coke.
“You need to stop being picky,” Coco added.
Audra rolled her eyes. “And settle for somebody who beats me up on the first and the fifteenth?” As soon as she said it, Audra wished she could take the words back. The smile faded from Coco’s face.
“Coco, I . . . I’m sorry.” She motioned toward the empty glass set in front of her. “It’s the liquor.”
Coco bit down on her lip. “Don’t worry about it,” she said, shifting uncomfortably.
“No, I shouldn’t have said that.” Audra covered Coco’s hand with her own. “I know you love Sonny. We just hate what he’s doing to you. Why don’t you let me come over and talk to Sonny?” Audra figured since the conversation had drifted back to Coco’s boyfriend, she might as well finish it.
“Why don’t you let me come over and make Sonny some hot grits?” Nita scowled.
“For the umpteenth time, can you guys just let me handle this, please? I’m getting a plan together, and I’ll be all right.”
“You’ve been singing that song for six months now,” Nita said. “And don’t hand me that ‘I’m staying for the baby’ crap. If anything, now you should really want to leave so you don’t have to raise your child in an abusive household. Break the cycle, girl.”
“Drop it, Nita, okay? Just mind your own business.” The force in Coco’s voice caused her friend’s eyes to widen in surprise.
“Fine, just don’t invite me to your funeral.”
“Hel-lo,” Audra said, waving her hand. “Can we please not fight? We’re supposed to be having my birthday-slash-pity party.”
“I think it’s a pity the way she keeps letting Sonny beat her ass.”
“Nita!” Audra admonished.
Nita rolled her eyes but shrugged and crossed her arms to let her friends know she was done talking about it.
“Anyway,” Audra said, giving up on further discussion about Sonny, “that date with the metrosexual was a bust, and Jared has been blowing up my phone, trying to tell me that wasn’t him I heard,” Audra said, referring to her ex-boyfriend and their latest drama. She’d really been hoping things would work out with Jared. Not only was he handsome and sexy but he would make a great father.
“Did you not tell him that his number popped up on the caller ID and it’s not like you don’t know his voice?” Nita asked.
Audra nodded miserably. Three weeks ago, she was at home putting her six-year-old son, Andrew, to bed when her cell phone rang. She had spent all evening trying to cheer Andrew up. Jared was supposed to take him to a Houston Astros game, but he’d canceled, saying he had to work late. When Audra saw Jared’s number, she readied herself for his apologies. But he didn’t say anything, and she figured he had called her by mistake, which he’d done numerous times before. She was just about to hang up when she heard Jared say, “Come on, baby. Shake it for Daddy.” That had caused her to go sit on her sofa and listen for one hour and fifteen minutes. What she heard had her in tears on the floor all night long. Never in a million years did she think she’d hear her man having sex with another woman. Pure, unadulterated, buck-wild sex. Even though she knew she should hang up, no matter how much it tore her up, she listened to everything. Finally, she had hung up and tried to call him right back. But, naturally, he didn’t answer.
“I can’t believe he was gon’ pull that R. Kelly ‘it wasn’t me’ crap,” Nita said, snapping Audra out of her thoughts.
“Yeah,” Coco added. “Even when you recounted word for word what he said.”
Audra sighed heavily as she bemoaned her luck with men. “That’s Jared ‘if the evidence doesn’t fit, you must acquit’ Stevens.”
“Well, the evidence fit, so I’m glad you quit his trifling behind,” Nita said. “He should’ve been gone. He’s a professional boxer who hasn’t had a match in three years, living up with you and your son, using your electricity, talking about how he’s gonna be the next Mike Tyson.”
“He was just so good with Andrew.” Audra struggled not to cry. She’d shed enough tears behind Jared, whom she’d put out the very next day after overhearing the phone call.
“It’s not good for Andrew to see his mother so unhappy,” Coco said.
“That’s why you guys need to come with me to the Rockets party tonight,” Nita said.
Audra made a disgusted noise. “I’m tired of the pro scene. It’s not working. We’re too old to compete with those Pop-Tarts,” she moaned. They’d gone to a party for Vince Young last week, and she’d felt more like a chaperone.
“Yeah, I’m tired of parties, too. The last one we went to, you were the only one who walked away with a phone number,” Coco added. “And he wasn’t even a baller. Just a friend of a friend of a baller. I wouldn’t have talked to anyone anyway, but it would’ve been nice if someone had at least tried.”
Audra nodded her head. The pro scene was getting really old. Since college, all three of them had messed with football players, basketball players, all kinds of professional athletes or their friends, and they had gotten nowhere.
“You didn’t have any luck because you guys weren’t working it,” Nita said, snapping her fingers.
“We. Can’t. Compete,” Audra slowly said. Nita enjoyed the pro scene, not just because she attracted the most men but because she logged all of their escapades in her journal, which she wrote in daily. She never let them read it—it had been that way since she’d started writing in the eighth grade. She claimed she might release a book one day, something like Confessions of a Video Vixen. So she had reason to stay on that scene, but Audra was tired. “Besides, most of these players are married or in a serious relationship and only looking for a chick on the side,” Audra continued. “I’m looking for a husband.”
“And a daddy,” Nita playfully teased.
“And a daddy,” Audra replied. “I’m not ashamed to admit it. It’s hard for a single mother. But the pro scene isn’t cutting it. The old heads are settled and the young heads want young girls. We’re all over thirty, or about to hit thirty,” she said, pointing to Nita, who was still twenty-nine. “That game is up.”
“So we get a new game,” Nita casually responded.
“I don’t want a game. I want a good, clean, decent man.” Audra sighed.
“Maybe even a nice Christian man,” Coco threw in.
“See, now you goin’ too far.” Nita tsked as she downed the rest of her drink.
“Really, I’m not,” Coco lamented. “Maybe if I find me a Christian man, I won’t have all of this drama.”
“She’s right,” Audra added, even though she knew if Jesus himself sent Coco a man, she’d be too blinded by Sonny to give him a chance.
“Well, you guys are by yourselves on that one. Because ain’t nothing a Christian man can do for me but introduce me to a bad boy. I need excitement in my life,” Nita said.
“Well, I need something different, and I promise you, I’m going to find a way to get it.” She didn’t know how, but Audra knew, from now on, her search for a man was going in a totally different direction.
“So what, you want to try hockey players?” Nita asked.
Audra turned up her lips. “Don’t be silly.”
“I’m just saying, you have all these grand ideas.” Nita shrugged.
“I don’t have an idea yet,” Audra replied. “But give me a few weeks, I’ll come up with something.”
Nita and Coco eyed their friend. She had that determined look on her face. Her mind was churning, and they knew her well enough to know she wouldn’t stop until she came up with a plan to snag them all some decent men.
© 2010 RESHONDA TATE BILLINGSLEY
Reading Group Guide
This reading group guide for Say Amen, Again includes an introduction, discussion questions, ideas for enhancing your book club, and a Q&A with author ReShonda Tate Billingsley. The suggested questions are intended to help your reading group find new and interesting angles and topics for your discussion. We hope that these ideas will enrich your conversation and increase your enjoyment of the book.
Rachel Adams is trying to find a way to forgive her husband, Pastor Lester Adams, for having an affair. Her task is made all the more difficult by the reappearance of his former mistress, Mary Richardson, in their family’s church. Now pregnant, Mary claims that Lester is the child’s father and is intent on seducing him away from Rachel. Meanwhile, a tragedy rocks the foundation of the Adams family and everyone involved is confronted with an ultimate decision of forgiveness.
Questions and Topics for Discussion
1. What does Rachel’s dream in the novel’s opening chapter reveal about her fears? How is she able to overcome these fears by the end of the book?
2. Despite Lester’s continual refusal of her affections, Mary protests that the love she feels for him is real. Do you think this is true?
3. Rachel fears that her anger is interfering with her growth as a Christian. Do you agree with her decision to leave the church until Mary is removed? Likewise, do you think Mary should be removed from the church—or do you agree with Deacon Jacobs’s assessment that “if they kicked one transgressor out, they had to kick them all out” (p. 14)?
4. Mary’s visit from her mother, Margaret, is unwelcome and reinforces why Mary removed Margaret from her life in the first place. How does Mary feel when she sees her mother? How do you think Mary’s relationship with her mother has influenced her as a person?
5. Mary’s dealing ex-boyfriend, Craig, is another unwelcome visitor who brings “nothing but trouble” when he comes around. Is there anything Mary could have done to rid Craig from her life and leave her past behind? Or do you think her past was always destined to follow her?
6. Fed up with Aunt Minnie’s constant judgment of his family, Simon reveals a few of her deepest secrets to prove that she’s not as perfect as she pretends to be. As Simon says, do you think she “had that coming”?
7. Although Bobby never makes an appearance in this novel, Rachel can’t help but think about him from time to time. She wonders if chasing after him in the past influenced Lester’s affair with Mary. Do you feel that Rachel is right to take on part of the blame for Lester’s affair?
8. After Rachel’s interaction with Pastor Terrance Ellis at Lily Grove Church, she felt humiliated for having misunderstood the pastor’s intentions. Did you also think Pastor Ellis was coming on to Rachel? How did you react to her reasoning that having an affair of her own would help her recover from Lester’s affair? Have you ever felt a similar urge to seek some kind of revenge?
9. Did Roderick’s suicide take you by surprise? Teenage bullying due to sexual orientation is a prominent topic in the media today. How does Roderick’s story echo other tragedies you’ve read or heard about?
10. Rachel’s father offers words of advice after Lester is arrested: “Baby girl, God is in the blessing business. He’s not in the punishing business. . . . Just know that God doesn’t give us more than we can bear” (p. 197). Do you agree? Has there ever been a time in your life that you felt you were being tested beyond what you could bear?
11. What did you think of Rachel’s decision to keep Mary’s son, despite him being a constant reminder of Lester’s indiscretion? Would you have made the same decision? Similarly, how would Rachel’s decision have been different if it had turned out that Lester was, in fact, the boy’s father?
12. How did your opinion of Mary change as you read the book? By the end of the novel, did you find yourself sympathizing with her situation? Or did you think she got what she deserved?
13. How does the role of forgiveness impact both the characters and the events in the novel? Is Rachel truly able to forgive Lester for his indiscretion by the end of the book? Do you think Jonathan will ever be able to forgive himself for what happened to Roderick?
Enhance Your Book Club
1. Let the Church Say Amen, the first in ReShonda Tate Billingsley’s Say Amen series, is currently being produced as a feature film. If you were in charge of casting, who would you cast as Rachel? Lester? Mary?
2. Roderick’s suicide, like many other teenage suicides committed by those who do not feel accepted by their families and/or communities, came as a saddening shock to those who loved him. If you’d like to help troubled teens in your area, consider taking part in one of the following campaigns:
• The It Gets Better Project, a worldwide movement of hope for LGBT youth: www.itgetsbetter.org
• To Write Love on Her Arms, a movement dedicated to helping those who struggle with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide: www.twloha.com
• The Trevor Project, a campaign for a future where all youth have the same opportunities, regardless of sexual orientation or gender identity: www.thetrevorproject.org
3. Say Amen, Again is the third book in ReShonda Tate Billingsley’s series about Rachel and her family. If your book group hasn’t yet read the first two books in the series, consider Let the Church Say Amen or Everybody Say Amen for your next discussion.
4. You can learn more about ReShonda Tate Billingsley and her books on her official website (www.reshondatatebillingsley.com). You can also follow her on Twitter (twitter.com/ReShondaT).
A Conversation with ReShonda Tate Billingsley
Say Amen, Again is the third book in the Say Amen series. Which character do you think has grown the most since Let the Church Say Amen, the first in the series?
It would definitely have to be Rachel. I mean, did you ever imagine the Rachel we first met would be capable of adopting the child of her husband’s mistress?
Do you have any plans to write another book about Rachel and her family? What’s next for the Jacksons and the Adamses?
Rachel is one of those characters that won’t let me tuck her away. I never planned to write the first sequel, and she demanded that her story continue. Next up, she’ll meet up with Jasmine Larson Bush, the main character from author Victoria Christopher Murray’s Jasmine series. The two women are so much alike and so different and they’ll clash as both try to get their husbands elected to a prestigious position in a national organization. That book is called Saints and Sinners and comes out in 2012.
Before you began writing Say Amen, Again, did you know how it would end? Was Rachel always going to accept Mary’s baby into her life?
Oh, I never know how my books are going to end. That’s why it’s so hard for me to write an outline. My characters take over and they tell me the direction in which they want to go. So, I had no idea if the baby was going to even be Lester’s, let alone Rachel’s plan for the child.
Roderick’s suicide is undoubtedly one of the novel’s saddest moments. Why did you feel this was important to include?
I just wanted to show the tragic side of what can happen when our young people feel like they can’t talk to anyone. I don’t even know whether Roderick was gay, but the simple fact that he was conflicted was cause for concern. Yet, for various reasons, he had nowhere to turn.
When it comes to writing, what would you say is your greatest challenge?
Whew, I guess it would be I can’t write fast enough, and I write pretty fast! There are so many unchartered territories I’d like to venture into, but my plate is pretty full. Some people would think that time might be a challenge, but I believe that you find time for your passion and writing is my passion, so time has never been an issue for me.
In its starred review of Let the Church Say Amen, Library Journal raves about your ability to infuse your text with “just the right dose of humor to balance the novel’s serious events.” Do you find it difficult to strike this balance in your writing?
I don’t. At all. People are always telling me how funny I am and I just don’t see it. I guess it’s because I’m not trying to be. It’s just a part of me; so naturally it’s reflected in my writing.
When you write, do you craft your novels with a mostly Christian audience in mind? Or do you aim to reach a wider readership?
Well, I’m a Christian who writes fiction, but that’s about the scope of my target. I mean, of course I want Christians to enjoy my book, but I also want nonbelievers, people of other religions, anyone and everyone to be able to pick up my book and enjoy it. And more than anything, get a message out of the book. In fact, my greatest joy in writing comes from those who found themselves growing closer to God, stronger in their faith, because of something I wrote. But at the end of the day, my message is for the masses. I believe that’s what God has called me to do.
What most inspires you to write?
A pure, simple passion for telling stories.
If one of your readers wanted to write a novel of his or her own, what would be the first piece of advice you would offer?
Don’t just talk about writing, write. And every minute you spend talking about what you don’t have time to do could be spent doing it. So many people don’t get their book finished because they let that get in the way. Something will always get in the way. The road to success is paved with tempting parking spaces. Don’t take a detour in trying to reach your dream. And finally, set small, attainable goals. I started with three pages a day, five days a week. No matter what, I committed to that. Well, before I knew it, three turned to thirty and I was able to finish my book.
What would you say is the most important thing for your readers to take away from Say Amen, Again?
The power of forgiveness and moving past your anger. I also hope that the book helps people reflect on how judging someone is something that should be left up to God.
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
Not such a great book by ReShonda seemed quite rushed and could have been a little better
This book is great....so good I read it in one day!!! This is the first book I read by Billingsley but it definitely will not be the last!!
This book was good, but not great. My favorite was "the devil is a liar". I didnt like the ending of :holy rollers". The women in this book are everyday women. To be honest Audra reminded me sooo... much of myself. Im experiencing the exact same thing. I guess I didnt like the ending because im still hopefull my turn out will be different. :-(
I loved this book it kept me on my toes. I loved the ladies in the book. they were so realistic..
Turning dirty thirty, best friends Audra, Nita and Coco are all growing tired of their aspirations of marrying wealthy. They've been on the paper chase for years. While they've landed some notable catches, they've also had their fair share of misses. Still single, the ladies realize that being a groupie at thirty ain't easy. Audra, a single mom, is looking for more than a boyfriend. She wants a husband as well as a father for her son. While watching the news, she devises a plan that will possibly help her and her girls find good, God-fearing men, who are rich and also looking for wives. Nita is single and not quite as desperate as her friends. Though she's in the same situation, Nita has had a little more success with her paper chase. After listening to Audra's plan to go after church men, Nita wants no parts of it. That is until she catches a glimpse of Marshall Wiley, a pastor who is rich, handsome and single. Coco is recently single. Her ex-boyfriend, a former football player, used her for a tackling dummy on numerous occasions. Coco is just as lonely as her friends, but she doesn't plan to play with God. She goes along with her girls and falls in love with a different man, GOD. Through Him, she finds a way to fall in love with herself and in doing so she's blessed with one of God's servants who has been waiting his whole life for her. 'Holy Rollers' is a well balanced read. I loved the dynamics of the friends. The desperation, drama and fear combined with the potential, love and hope. You can't help but laugh as you meet the hypocrites in the church while tsking at the same time. Love how in the end you see where three women transform, but the end is NOT a total fairytale. There were some editing issues that warrant a conscious eye, but nothing too distracting. Reviewed by: Crystal
I liked this book a lot, the women in this book are females I see in my everyday life. I thought these women were all amazing in there own way. And to add the church drama was the icing on the cake.
I love this book. I thought that it would be boring but, it kept my attention. I really enjoy books by ReShonda Tate Billingsley because they bring your own personal problems out and help you deal with them.
Great read kept you guessing.
I read this book in 2 days. Its a must read that cannot be put down . I enjoyed each characters story line and the ending. I grew up in the church and this book gave perfect examples of how judgmental people can be, what it takes to date a well known figure in the church and how to deal with these issues.
A she cat. I can see posts right now......