The thirty-four stories in this seminal collection powerfully display what have become Lydia Davis's trademarksdexterity, brevity, understatement, and surprise. Although the certainty of her prose suggests a world of almost clinical reason and clarity, her characters show us that life, thought, and language are full of disorder. Break It Down is Davis at her best. In the words of Jonathan Franzen, she is "a magician of self-consciousness."
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LYDIA DAVIS has received a MacArthur genius grant among other honors. Her collection Varieties of Disturbance was a finalist for the 2007 National Book Award.
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Break It Down
By Lydia Davis
Farrar, Straus and GirouxCopyright © 1986 Lydia Davis
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I get home from work and there is a message from him: that he is not coming, that he is busy. He will call again. I wait to hear from him, then at nine o'clock I go to where he lives, find his car, but he's not home.' I knock at his apartment door and then at all the garage doors, not knowing which garage door is his — no answer. I write a note, read it over, write a new note, and stick it in his door. At home I am restless, and all I can do, though I have a lot to do, since I'm going on a trip in the morning, is play the piano. I call again at ten-forty-five and he's home, he has been to the movies with his old girlfriend, and she's still there. He says he'll call back. I wait. Finally I sit down and write in my notebook that when he calls me either he will then come to me, or he will not and I will be angry, and so I will have either him or my own anger, and this might be all right, since anger is always a great comfort, as I found with my husband. And then I go on to write, in the third person and the past tense, that clearly she always needed to have a love even if it was a complicated love. He calls back before I have time to finish writing all this down. When he calls, it is a little after eleven-thirty. We argue until nearly twelve. Everything he says is a contradiction: for example, he says he did not want to see me because he wanted to work and even more because he wanted to be alone, but he has not worked and he has not been alone. There is no way I can get him to reconcile any of his contradictions, and when this conversation begins to sound too much like many I had with my husband I say goodbye and hang up. I finish writing down what I started to write down even though by now it no longer seems true that anger is any great comfort.
I call him back five minutes later to tell him that I am sorry about all this arguing, and that I love him, but there is no answer. I call again five minutes later, thinking he might have walked out to his garage and walked back, but again there is no answer. I think of driving to where he lives again and looking for his garage to see if he is in there working, because he keeps his desk there and his books and that is where he goes to read and write. I am in my nightgown, it is after twelve and I have to leave the next morning at five. Even so, I get dressed and drive the mile or so to his place. I am afraid that when I get there I will see other cars by his house that I did not see earlier and that one of them will belong to his old girlfriend. When I drive down the driveway I see two cars that weren't there before, and one of them is parked as close as possible to his door, and I think that she is there. I walk around the small building to the back where his apartment is, and look in the window: the light is on, but I can't see anything clearly because of the half-closed venetian blinds and the steam on the glass. But things inside the room are not the same as they were earlier in the evening, and before there was no steam. I open the outer screen door and knock. I wait. No answer. I let the screen door fall shut and I walk away to check the row of garages. Now the door opens behind me as I am walking away and he comes out. I can't see him very well because it is dark in the narrow lane beside his door and he is wearing dark clothes and whatever light there is is behind him. He comes up to me and puts his arms around me without speaking, and I think he is not speaking not because he is feeling so much but because he is preparing what he will say. He lets go of me and walks around me and ahead of me out to where the cars are parked by the garage doors.
As we walk out there he says "Look," and my name, and I am waiting for him to say that she is here and also that it's all over between us. But he doesn't, and I have the feeling he did intend to say something like that, at least say that she was here, and that he then thought better of it for some reason. Instead, he says that everything that went wrong tonight was his fault and he's sorry. He stands with his back against a garage door and his face in the light and I stand in front of him with my back to the light. At one point he hugs me so suddenly that the fire of my cigarette crumbles against the garage door behind him. I know why we're out here and not in his room, but I don't ask him until everything is all right between us. Then he says, "She wasn't here when I called you. She came back later." He says the only reason she is there is that something is troubling her and he is the only one she can talk to about it. Then he says, "You don't understand, do you?"
I try to figure it out.
So they went to the movies and then came back to his place and then I called and then she left and he called back and we argued and then I called back twice but he had gone out to get a beer (he says) and then I drove over and in the meantime he had returned from buying beer and she had also come back and she was in his room so we talked by the garage doors. But what is the truth? Could he and she both really have come back in that short interval between my last phone call and my arrival at his place? Or is, the truth really that during his call to me she waited outside or in his garage or in her car and that he then brought her in again, and that when the phone rang with my second and third calls he let it ring without answering, because he was fed up with me and with arguing? Or is the truth that she did leave and did come back later but that he remained and let the phone ring without answering? Or did he perhaps bring her in and then go out for the beer while she waited there and listened to the phone ring? The last is the least likely. I don't believe anyway that there was any trip out for beer.
The fact that he does not tell me the truth all the time makes me not sure of his truth at certain times, and then I work to figure out for myself if what he is telling me is the truth or not, and sometimes I can figure out that it's not the truth and sometimes I don't know and never know, and sometimes just because he says it to me over and over again I am convinced it is the truth because I don't believe he would repeat a lie so often. Maybe the truth does not matter, but I want to know it if only so that I can come to some conclusions about such questions as: whether he is angry at me or not; if he is, then how angry; whether he still loves her or not; if he does, then how much; whether he loves me or not; how much; how capable he is of deceiving me in the act and after the act in the telling.CHAPTER 2
The Fears of Mrs. Orlando
Mrs. Orlando's world is a dark one. In her house she knows what is dangerous: the gas stove, the steep stairs, the slick bathtub, and several kinds of bad wiring. Outside her house she knows some of what is dangerous but not all of it, and is frightened by her own ignorance, and avid for information about crime and disaster.
Though she takes every precaution, no precaution will be enough. She tries to prepare for sudden hunger, for cold, for boredom, and for heavy bleeding. She is never without a bandaid, a safety pin, and a knife. In her car she has, among other things, a length of rope and a whistle, and also a social history of England to read while waiting for her daughters, who are often a long time shopping.
In general she likes to be accompanied by men: they offer protection both because of their large size and because of their rational outlook on the world. She admires prudence, and respects the man who reserves a table in advance and also the one who hesitates before answering any of her questions. She believes in hiring lawyers and feels most comfortable talking to lawyers because every one of their words is endorsed by the law. But she will ask her daughters or a woman friend to go shopping with her downtown, rather than go alone.
She has been attacked by a man in an elevator, downtown. It was at night, the man was black, and she did not know the neighborhood. She was younger then. She has been molested several times in a crowded bus. In a restaurant once, after an argument, an excited waiter spilled coffee on her hands.
In the city she is afraid of being carried away underground on the wrong subway, but will not ask directions from strangers of a lower class. She walks past many black men who are planning different crimes. Anyone at all may rob her, even another woman.
At home, she talks to her daughters for hours on the telephone and her talk is all premonition of disaster. She does not like to express satisfaction, because she is afraid she will ruin a run of good luck. If she does happen to say that something is going well, then she lowers her voice to say it and after saying it knocks on the telephone table. Her daughters tell her very little, knowing she will find something ominous in what they tell her. And when they tell her so little then she is afraid something is wrong — either their health or their marriage.
One day she tells them a story over the telephone. She has been downtown shopping alone. She leaves the car and goes into a fabric store. She looks at fabrics and does not buy anything, though she takes away a couple of swatches in her purse. On the sidewalk there are many blacks walking around and they make her nervous. She goes to her car. As she takes out her keys, a hand grabs her ankle from under the car. A man has been lying under her car and now he grabs her stockinged ankle with his black hand and tells her in a voice muffled by the car to drop her purse and walk away. She does so, though she can hardly stand. She waits by the wall of a building and watches the purse but it does not move from where it lies on the curb. A few people glance at her. Then she walks to the car, kneels on the sidewalk, and looks under. She can see the sunlight on the road beyond, and some pipes on the belly of her car: no man. She picks up her purse and drives home.
Her daughters don't believe her story. They ask her why a man would do such a peculiar thing, and in broad daylight. They point out that he could not have simply disappeared then, simply vanished into thin air. She is outraged by their disbelief and does not like the way they talk about broad daylight and thin air.
A few days after the assault on her ankle, a second incident upsets her. She has driven her car down at evening to a parking lot beside the beach as she sometimes does, so that she can sit and watch the sunset through her windshield. This evening, however, as she looks over the boardwalk at the water, she does not see the peaceful deserted beach that she usually sees, but a small knot of people standing around something that seems to be lying on the sand.
She is instantly curious, but half inclined to drive away without looking at the sunset or going to see what is on the sand. She tries to think what it could be. It is probably some kind of animal, because people do not stare so long at something unless it has been alive or is alive. She imagines a large fish. It has to be large, because a small fish is not interesting, nor is something like a jellyfish that is also small. She imagines a dolphin, and she imagines a shark. It might also be a seal. Most likely dead already, but it could also be dying and this knot of people intent on watching it die.
Now at last Mrs. Orlando must go and see for herself. She picks up her purse and gets out of her car, locks it behind her, steps over a low concrete wall, and sinks into the sand. Walking slowly, with difficulty, in her high heels through the sand, legs well apart, she holds her hard shiny purse by its strap and it swings wildly back and forth. The sea breeze presses her flowered dress against her thighs and the hem of it flutters gaily around her knees, but her tight silver curls are motionless and she frowns as she plunges on.
She moves in among the people, and looks down. What is lying on the sand is not a fish or a seal but a young man. He is lying perfectly straight with his feet together and his arms by his sides, and he is dead. Someone has covered him with newspapers but the breeze is lifting the sheets of paper and one by one they curl up and slide over the sand to tangle in the legs of the bystanders. Finally a dark-skinned man who looks to Mrs. Orlando like a Mexican puts out his foot and slowly pushes aside the last sheet of newspaper and now everyone has a good look at the dead man. He is handsome and thin, and his color is gray and beginning to yellow in places.
Mrs. Orlando is absorbed in looking. She glances around at the others and she can see they have forgotten themselves too. A drowning. This is a drowning. This may even be a suicide.
She struggles back over the sand. When she gets home, she immediately calls her daughters and tells them what she has seen. She starts by saying she has seen a dead man on the beach, a drowned man, and then she starts over again and tells more. Her daughters are uneasy because she becomes so excited each time she tells the story.
For the next few days, she stays inside her house. Then she leaves suddenly and goes to a friend's house. She tells this friend that she has received an obscene phone call, and she spends the night there. When she returns home the next day, she thinks someone has broken in, because certain things are missing. Later she finds each thing in an odd place, but she can't lose the feeling that an intruder has been there.
She sits inside her house fearing intruders and watching out for what might go wrong. As she sits, and especially at night, she so often hears strange noises that she is certain there are prowlers below the windowsills. Then she must go out and look at her house from the outside. She circles the house in the dark and sees no prowlers and goes back in. But after sitting inside for half an hour she feels she has to go out again and check the house from the outside.
She goes in and out, and the next day too she goes in and out. Then she stays inside and just talks on the phone, keeping her eyes on the doors and windows and alert to strange shadows, and for some time after this she will not go out except in the early morning to examine the soil for footprints.CHAPTER 3
Liminal: The Little Man
Lying there trying to sleep, a little light coming through the curtain from the street, she planned things and remembered things and sometimes just listened to sounds and looked at the light and the dark. She thought about the opening and closing of her eyes: that the lids lifted to reveal a scene in all its depth and light and dark that had been there all along unseen by her, nothing to her since she did not see it, and then dropped again and made all that scene unseen again, and could any time lift and show it and any time close and hide it, though often, lying sleepless, her eyes shut, she was so alert, so racing ahead with what she was thinking, that her eyes seemed to her to be wide open behind the closed lids, bugged, glassy, staring, though staring out only into the dark back of the closed lids.
Her son came and laid out three large gray shells on her thigh, and the visitor, sitting close to her on another hard chair, reached over to take up the middle one and look at it — an oval cowrie, with white lips.
The moment when a limit is reached, when there is nothing ahead but darkness: something comes in to help that is not real. Another way all this is like madness: a mad person not helped out of his trouble by anything real begins to trust what is not real because it helps him and he needs it because real things continue not to help him.
Her son out on the terrace is dropping a brick over and over again on a plastic gun, breaking it into sharp pieces. The television is on in a room behind a closed door. Another woman comes out with her hair wet and a towel wrapped around her saying suddenly and loudly to him, That's bad, stop it. Her son stands holding the brick, with fear on his face. She says, I was beginning to meditate and I thought the house was falling down. The pieces of red plastic shine on the painted clay around his feet.
How it works: Sometimes there is a thought that becomes a dream (she is laying out a long sentence and then she is out on Fourteenth Street laying out a long piece of black curb) and the mind says, But wait, this isn't true, you're beginning to dream, and she wakes up to think about thinking and dreaming. Sometimes she has lain awake a long time and the stroke of sleep comes down finally and softens every part of her body at once; then her mind notices and wakes because it is interested in how sleep comes so suddenly. Sometimes her mind won't stop working in the first place and won't stop for hours and she gets up to make a warm drink and then it is not the warm drink that helps but the fact that action has been taken. Sometimes sleep comes easily, but almost right away (she has been sleeping ten minutes or so) a loud noise or a soft but offensive noise wakes her and her heart races. First there is only inarticulate anger, then her mind begins working again.
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Table of Contents
ContentsTable of Contents,
The Fears of Mrs. Orlando,
Liminal: The Little Man,
Break It Down,
Mr. Burdoff's Visit to Germany,
What She Knew,
Mildred and the Oboe,
Extracts from a Life,
The House Plans,
How W. H. Auden Spends the Night in a Friend's House:,
In a House Besieged,
Visit to Her Husband,
Cockroaches in Autumn,
A Few Things Wrong with Me,
Sketches for a Life of Wassilly,
French Lesson I: Le Meurtre,
Once a Very Stupid Man,
What an Old Woman Will Wear,
Five Signs of Disturbance,
Also by Lydia Davis,
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Are you kneeling and putting your hands on the carpet like that. Are you on the carpet and your hands are on it?
A really fascinating collection of short stories. Most of them are very short -- a few pages or in some cases even a paragraph (one of these is pasted below). They are all impeccably written, mostly odd, invariably disorienting with their psychological shifts. Most of them are about relationships, many of them failed. All of them are economical with only a minimum of necessary detail.But better than a description is to read one of them entitled "What She Knew":"People did not know what she knew, that she was not really a woman but a man, often a fat man, but more often, probably, an old man. The fact that she was an old man made it hard for her to be a young woman. It was hard for her to talk to a young man, for instance, though the young man was clearly interested in her. She had to ask herself, Why is this young man flirting with this old man?"
Lydia writes short-short fiction. Some of her stories are just a few sentences long. These do not end up being very strong. As many others have noted, some of these "stories" are more like sketches for longer works of fiction - interesting to read, but not emotionally involving. (There is nothing on the level of: "For sale. Baby shoes. Never worn."-style micro-stories.) Her longer-short-short fiction, however, is often breathtaking and made me an instant fan of Lydia Davis. Her economical use of words is awe-inspiring - never a word wasted.
The spelling and grammer was alright as far as I can tell and the plot was looks very average right now. The whole 'oh look at me, Im a /normal/ girl and I have a crush on this total hottie' has been done to death. Im begging you, please do not make this a generic cleche love story. Spice it up! The intoductary paragraph also physically hurt to read... because... I dont know if you know this... but... the '...'s mean a long pause... and... they should be used sparingly... What flows better in your opinion; <br> 'Man, Toon Link is the best character in Super Smash Bros. Using arrows and boomerang for ranged attacks and the sword for close combat. Really butters my bread.' <br> 'Man... Toon Link is the best character in Super Smash Bros... Using arrows and boomerang for ranged attacks...and the sword for close combat... Really butters my bread...' <br> Of course this example was exagerated, (exept for the content of the sentence) but you can see that , and . look a lot better than constant ...s. I get that youre trying to make it narritive, but you still dont want a lot of ...s. I hope you continue this story and I look forward to future updates. Cant wait for the next one!
Hi. My name Opal Connors. I am a normal girl with normal friends and normal cheerleading practices....I live a normal life with parents, a house, school, friends and cute guts! ;). Yes...cute guys...There is a lot of cute ones out there but I like this one, se<_>xy guy....He is muscalur, adorable, sweet....but I never really talk to him. Sometimes I hear his voice from the gym...or from the cafateria. But he doesn't really pay attention to me...till now.... <br>I was walking down the hallwah, listening to music. It was lunch time and everybody wss pretty chatting with their friends or whatever. I...of course...going to cheerleading practice when my best friend, Luna Baker, came up to me. <p>"Hey, bestie! Where are you going?" She asked me as we walked closer to the gym. <br>"Cheerleading practice...I have it every Thursday..." I answered. <br>"Oh!" She facepalmed, sighing softly. "I totally forgot..." <br>"The big game is on Saturday. I need a lot of practice..." I stated as we stopped at door way. I took in a sharp breath as I saw him....Kory Steel. The guy I was talking about. He was playing basketball....by himself? <br>"You like him..." Luna whispered with a huge grin. <br>"I do not!" I barked at her, my eyes glued to him. His body was amazing. He was moving so fast on the floor, it took my breath away... <br>Just as I was about to go talk to him, Luna's phone rang. I quickly hid behind the bleachers but Luna was trying to find her phone, which was clearly in her backpack. Kory looked up at her, smiling. <br>"Well...Luns. Forgot to put your phone on vibrate again?" Kory asked her. Luna quickly nodded. <br>"Yeah...um...I need to take this...Bye, Kory!" <br>Kory chuckled softly as he waved bye. Then returned to the his practice as I drooled from behind the bleachers. He was so se<_>xy. Black hair, bright dreamy blue eyes. Tall and slim body. Ugh! I can't ever stop thinking about him. I took a deep breatb and decided to go to him. I came out from behind the bleachers and slowly sat down on the edge of one, watching him. After Kory was done, he turned...and noticed me! Uh-oh! <br>Kory slowly walked over to me, holding his basketball under his arm. "Hey..." He greeted, his voice silky and smooth. <br>She smiled shyly, biting down on my lip. "Hello..." <br>"You're Opal, right?" Kory asked, running a hand tbrough his hair. Even though he was dirty and sweaty...he still looked pretty se<_>xy! :3. <br>I nodded, blushing a bit. "Yes... That's me! Opal! Haha!" That was dumb. <br>Kory nodded back, a smirk appearing on his features. "Cool. You know...you seem pretty sweet. I like that. How about we hang out?" He asked as he turned around and shot the ball into the hoop. He turned to me. "Wanna have some fun?" <br>I nodded, chewing on my lip. "Sure..." What did he mean by fun? <br>" Cool! So..uh...follow me..." Kory said, before walking out of gym. I followed him. I wonder where he was taking me or what he was going to do to me? I am about to find out.... <p>(( More coming soon! Please commet. Leave suggestions! More will be here shortly! Thank you! )) <br>~Mercy&star