An Abbreviated Life: A Memoir

An Abbreviated Life: A Memoir

by Ariel Leve

Narrated by Martha Plimpton

Unabridged — 5 hours, 59 minutes

Ariel Leve
An Abbreviated Life: A Memoir

An Abbreviated Life: A Memoir

by Ariel Leve

Narrated by Martha Plimpton

Unabridged — 5 hours, 59 minutes

Ariel Leve

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A beautiful, startling, and candid memoir about growing up without boundaries, in which Ariel Leve recalls with candor and sensitivity the turbulent time she endured as the only child of an unstable poet for a mother and a beloved but largely absent father, and explores the consequences of a psychologically harrowing childhood as she seeks refuge from the past and recovers what was lost.

Ariel Leve grew up in Manhattan with an eccentric mother she describes as “a poet, an artist, a self-appointed troublemaker and attention seeker.” Leve learned to become her own parent, taking care of herself and her mother’s needs. There would be uncontrolled, impulsive rages followed with denial, disavowed responsibility, and then extreme outpourings of affection. How does a child learn to feel safe in this topsy-turvy world of conditional love?

Leve captures the chaos and lasting impact of a child’s life under siege and explores how the coping mechanisms she developed to survive later incapacitated her as an adult. There were material comforts, but no emotional safety, except for summer visits to her father’s home in South East Asia—an escape that was terminated after he attempted to gain custody. Following the death of a loving caretaker, a succession of replacements raised Leve—relationships which resulted in intense attachment and loss. It was not until decades later, when Leve moved to other side of the world, that she could begin to emancipate herself from the past. In a relationship with a man who has children, caring for them yields clarity of what was missing.

In telling her haunting story, Leve seeks to understand the effects of chronic psychological maltreatment on a child’s developing brain, and to discover how to build a life for herself that she never dreamed possible: An unabbreviated life.

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An Abbreviated Life is the perfect final selection for the Horrid Mothers Book Club. Begin with the first generation of recent "momoirs" that resemble traditional realistic novels — Mary Karr's The Liars' Club and Jeannette Walls's The Glass Castle, both published in 2005. Then on to the second generation, such as Jeanette Winterson's Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal? and Alison Bechdel's Are You My Mother? — both postmodern, from their interrogative titles through their continual references to themselves as texts. Except for Winterson's mother, the antagonists of these earlier books are impoverished would-be artists who take out their frustrations and anger on their daughters. Ariel Leve's mother is even more horrid because she's a successful and well-off literary writer who still abuses her daughter. Fortunately for readers and for Leve the author, though not for Ariel the child, her mother's outrageous behavior and aesthetic passions seem to have pressed Leve to create an original form, one that combines extremes of the first generation's factuality and the second generation's artificiality.

Though unconventionally achronological in structure, An Abbreviated Life is more "realistic" than any of the earlier works because two of its characters are public figures about whom information can be ascertained from sources other than the author. In a prefatory note, Leve states, "Some names and details have been changed in order to protect the privacy and/or anonymity of various individuals involved," but she doesn't try very hard to disguise identities. Although she calls her mother Suzanne, it's easy to find that "Suzanne" is Sandra Hochman, the author of many books of poetry and novels who taught at the City College of New York and Fordham University. She also directed a feminist movie, Year of the Woman, that has received renewed attention in recent years. A free-spirited and charming heiress in the New York of the '60s and '70s, Hochman was a friend of Anaïs Nin, had affairs with literary lions including Saul Bellow and (apparently) Robert Lowell, was filmed by Andy Warhol, dragooned Norman Mailer into being Ariel's godfather, and gave parties attended by other celebrities from the worlds of art and music. Her companion for about fifteen years was Donald Townsend, a transplanted North Dakotan who founded a chain of then innovative restaurants called Tad's Steaks. Although Leve's preface claims scrupulosity, much of the identifying information above is front-loaded as the hook for an apparent "tell-all" exposé of the Mommie Dearest variety. But Leve's "all" is mostly about herself and her feelings toward the public figures.

Leve is forty-six when writing An Abbreviated Life, which comprises fifty-one abbreviated chapters that hop, skip, and jump among the decades of her life. Associations, contrasts, and recurring themes dictate this textual jittering, but, as with a modernist or postmodernist novel, readers can reconstruct a chronology that leads to questions about psychological causality. "Suzanne" married Harvey Leve (his real name used in the book) in 1966. Ariel was born in 1968. In 1972, Harvey could not bear living with Suzanne and moved to Thailand, where Ariel as a young girl visited him in the summers. The rest of the year she was left in New York to be by turns smothered and neglected just about daily by Suzanne, who employed a series of housekeepers to look after Ariel when Suzanne was busy: writing, in bed talking on the phone, or throwing parties, to which she was frequently a late arrival.

The demon is in the details. One of the most grotesque is Suzanne's game of "Being Born," in which Suzanne lies naked in bed while Ariel has to pretend she is emerging from her mother's vulva. Suzanne embarrasses Ariel by wearing her bathrobe on the street, talks about the size of her current boyfriend's penis with the young child, rarely shows up on time for a meal or Ariel's performances, and breaks every promise Ariel can remember her making. In the summer of 1977, Ariel writes her mother from Thailand with plans to live with her father. Two days after Suzanne receives the letter, she, accompanied by her tennis pro, storms into Ariel's room in Bangkok to take her back.

Leve repeatedly states that Suzanne subjected her to physical and emotional abuse while constantly reminding her daughter how much her mother loved her. This kind of contradiction — what Gregory Bateson and R. D. Laing called "the double bind" - - can drive kids crazy. Ariel fortunately had Josie, one sane long- term housekeeper; Rita, a former lover of her father's who visited Ariel for several years; the commonsensical Donald (after he dried out); and, though only at a distance, her father to provide some order in her childhood. But as an adult Leve says she still fears her mother, lacks confidence, and feels in a holding pattern.

Leve believes she has been "brain-damaged." A neurologist refines this to "brain-altered" by childhood stress, and the therapist whom Leve has been talking with for seventeen years decides to apply EMDR, a method of reprogramming the brain through eye exercises. Many months of this therapy, which is primarily used for treating PTSD, seem to help Leve, because in her book's present she visits her retired father, now residing in Bali, and begins living there with an Italian sailing instructor who is the single father of seven-year-old twin girls. Because the sweet- tempered Mario is militantly non-verbal, Leve learns to moderate some of her constant self-analysis and nurtures the motherless girls. After almost a year in Bali, she manages to write Suzanne a long letter that explains her absence and leads to writing An Abbreviated Life. With this information, I have not spoiled Leve's plot, because most of the facts can be gleaned from her first fifty pages.

When Ariel was a child, she wrote a story about a girl who ran away. Her mother ordered her to change "girl" to "dog" and told her to write poems. In Leve's last chapter, she says, "I'm not changing my story! I'm not!" I hope every word of Leve's recovery story is factual, but some of it, as well as her presentation of her father, can seem too good to be true. Forget that Elizabeth Gilbert in Eat, Pray, Love was also healed in Bali by a sweet- tempered man not a native speaker of English. Leve's innocent Bali is constructed of a few exotic clichés. Her father has consistently been described as almost too sweet to live, certainly to live with Suzanne. But why did Harvey, a Harvard Law graduate, insist on spending almost his whole adult life in Asia if he loved Ariel, as he says, more than anything? And is "devouring" Suzanne supporting Leve in Bali, as mother helped daughter live in London when Leve was a journalist there? The book also may leave others wondering what Ariel was like as a teenager and why she has been unable to write the liberating letter to her mother until she is forty- six.

Suzanne tells Ariel not to be a victim, but maybe she is as incapacitated as an adult as she asks us to believe. Still, questions niggle. How has Leve functioned for a decade as a journalist interviewing high-profile persons in the arts? That is not discussed. The memoir leaves large gaps to unpredictably but obsessively toggle back and forth between the horrors of Ariel's childhood in New York and the wonders of her year in Bali. I initially thought the temporal and spatial jumps, as well as the short, sometimes unrelated paragraphs and the pregnant sentence fragments, were meant to imitate the chaos that Ariel experienced as a child. But by the end of An Abbreviated Life, I thought it might be a highly sophisticated and intentionally unreliable narration like, say, Ford Madox Ford's classic enigma The Good Soldier. Instead of being disordered, the memoir's elements could have been carefully selected and cleverly arranged by Leve the author to demonstrate Ariel the narrator's evasion of tough questions about biographical causality and to illustrate what a desperate, possibly illusory recovery might look like. Winterson and Bechdel explicitly question their authorship within their scattered memoirs. Leve's narrative fragmentation leaves the questions to her readers.

Perhaps Leve's title points to the book's lacunae, which make An Abbreviated Life problematic and, to this literary critic, more interesting than any of the other memoirs. Protesting blowsy Edwardian sentimentality, Ezra Pound insisted, "Poetry should be at least as well written as prose." I think memoirs should be as well written as novels. Unless a memoir's "facts" can be verified because the subjects' lives are known to the public, I treat those "facts" as I would information about invented characters. The figures in memoirs must be plausible, and if they're not within the realm of probability the memoirist has the responsibility to indicate why. Winterson is particularly good at this when she depicts the Christian fanaticism of her mother. Leve gives dozens of pages to her early abandonment by her monstrous mother but only several paragraphs to Suzanne's abandonment as a child, which Leve admits affected her mothering. Only occasionally (and grudgingly) does Suzanne — let's face it: Sandra Hochman — get credit for what she achieved and what she gave her daughter despite being an atrocious parent; as it is, the story shares in Milton's famous problem with Satan in Paradise Lost, with a villain more interesting than anyone else in the book. Leve complains at great length that her life has been "abbreviated" by her mother, but Leve does the same thing in short space to her mother's life. If An Abbreviated Life were a novel, I'd call its narrative underdeveloped, overdetermined, and mistitled.

I emphasize the ambivalences and ambiguities of An Abbreviated Life for two reasons. First, because they can lead readers to think about how we read memoirs — what credulity we're willing to grant memoirists who say their extravagant accounts are true, what expectations we should have of first-person narrations in both fiction and nonfiction, what responsibility the memoirist has to be both factual and artful. A writer such as James Frey invents events to make his work more dramatic. That's just fakery, what the religious teachers of my youth called a sin of commission. More challenging is the memoir that appears to leave out crucial events, the possible sin of omission that scrupulous readers must judge. Since most of us are less likely to be extravagant liars than efficient withholders, An Abbreviated Life seems both true and false.

My second reason is this: I differ with the blurbs and advance reviews of An Abbreviated Life that praise it as another heartwarming story of how a damaged child triumphed over her past and found a happy ending. A heartwarmer may have been exactly what Leve intended but didn't have the skill to pull off without leaving lacunae that undermine her intent. I want to believe otherwise: that An Abbreviated Life has a parodic and deconstructive intent, using readers' conventional expectations and stock responses against them, as elements at odds with those expectations accumulate and complicate the warming formula. If my reading is correct, Leve's memoir is the third generation, a work as rooted in facts as books by Karr and Walls and a work more artfully subtle in its questioning of those "facts" than the memoirs by Winterson and Bechdel. Even if I'm wrong, discussing An Abbreviated Life at the Horrid Mothers Book Club should be intense because both mother and daughter may be horrid in ways that are unrecognizable to them but knowable to rigorous readers. Let the arguments begin — and lay in the extra tissues.

Tom LeClair is the author of five novels, two critical books, and hundreds of essays and reviews in nationally circulated periodicals. He can be reached at

Reviewer: Tom LeClair

Publishers Weekly

Leve, a journalist, author, and daughter of a poet whom she leaves unnamed, suffered an abusive mother-daughter relationship that reached well into adulthood. In this searing portrait, Leve vividly renders the trauma she endured and her struggle to free herself from her mother. To her friends, who included Andy Warhol and Saul Bellow, Leve’s mother is vivacious and alluring, regularly throwing dinner parties at her Manhattan penthouse. But as a single mother (Leve’s father left the family and moved to Bali), when she commands her child’s time and attention, her demands are absolute, her needs bottomless, and her rages unpredictable and seismic. “Throughout my childhood I was threatened with her lava consuming me,” Leve writes. When her mother is busy writing, she wants Leve silent (disruptive kid games aren’t allowed), and hands her off to a nanny, family friends, or near-strangers. Leve never directly addresses what’s behind her mother’s behavior beyond mentioning medication. Her mother is, Leve notes, the person who supported her talents and helped shape her into a writer. It’s not until Leve, after much therapy, decides in her 40s to move to Bali and limits her mother to contact over email that she experiences a release. Aided by a new relationship, she learns to trust. Leve’s powerful story of surviving her brutal childhood demonstrates that contentment can be found. Agent: Rob Weisbach, Rob Weisbach Creative. (June)

New York Observer

Leve’s prose is soulful, cryptic, musing.

Leve writes of learning to be constantly on guard, living ‘an abbreviated life,’ and how she finally found her way out. Hers is an unsentimental tale, both cautionary and heartening.

Dani Shapiro

Out of a childhood that seems just about impossible to have survived, Ariel Leve has written a haunting, indelible story that becomes its own form of redemption. This is an act of bravery that strikes me not only as a literary achievement, but a human one.

Richard Ford

An Abbreviated Life adds a harrowing chapter to the great tragi-comedy called “We Don’t Get To Choose Our Parents.” Ariel Leve’s extremely readable memoir is, at its heart, a story about surviving childhood—a trick we must all perform. Even in its raw extremes, her story is a universal one.

John Irving

The staccato style of this searing memoir enhances the harshness and emotional power of what is a frightening story by a brave author, who resolutely describes herself as ‘a long-distance runner through the canyon of childhood’—a modest understatement. An unstinting portrayal of psychological abuse, both insightful and precisely told.

Gloria Steinem

Sometimes, a child is born to a parent who can’t be a parent, and, like a seedling in the shade, has to grow toward a distant sun. Ariel Leve’s spare and powerful memoir will remind us that family isn’t everything — kindness and nurturing are.

Kirkus Reviews

A daughter's raw memoir exposes her "spiteful, vindictive, uncontrollable mother."Journalist Leve (It Could Be Worse, You Could Be Me, 2010, etc.), a former columnist for the London Sunday Times Magazine and contributor to other journals, grew up in a Manhattan penthouse with her mother, a poet whose narcissism, unpredictable mood swings, and physical abuse the author recounts in repetitive detail. At times "slapped, punched, kicked, pinched, and attacked," subjected to hysterical tirades alternating with suffocating demonstrations of love, Leve felt abandoned, betrayed, and continually threatened, as if she were stranded "in the pit of a crevasse, with a rope to safety just inches away and out of reach." Some measure of safety came during visits to her adored father, who lived in Thailand and whom Leve portrays as flawless; from her father's former girlfriend, whose nurturing attention brought a bit of stability to Leve's life in New York; and from a succession of caretakers, many of whom fled from her mother's employ. One woman quit or was fired multiple times over the course of 12 years. By her mid-40s, Leve still felt indelibly wounded and oppressed by the past. "You understand these things and you're in control of your life," her father remarks. "Why can't you beat those demons and destroy them?" Overcoming the demons, however, proved complicated: Leve learned that childhood stress and abuse caused "pathological changes to brain chemistry," making her "hypervigilant" and "highly reactive to perceived threats." Desperate for help, she decided to undergo eye movement desensitization and reprocessing therapy, designed to treat PTSD. Two years later, she was living with her Italian lover and his daughters in Bali, finally feeling central to a family. Though still beset by memories, she was also buoyed by "endorphins of hope" that she finally would be able to "outrace the past." A candid rendering of pain and survival.

Product Details

BN ID: 2940173828224
Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers
Publication date: 06/14/2016
Edition description: Unabridged

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